Firstly i would like to thank you all for your support, as usual it means the world to me.
I will tag some of you guys who have been following along but i want to put a trigger warning that theres alot of girl talk and mentions kids as well. Please dont feel obliged to respond and anyone is welcome,-ive just tagged those im aware have been following. Its not letting do the drop down box thing to hide content so ive put extra spaces.
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Friday was a really hard day for me. I did expect there might be something wrong but not to this extent. I went and spoke with the gynae and got all the test results.
Thankfully the smear and biposies have come.back clear so that is one less worry.
However ultrasounds and bloods and another one that i cant think of the name of have shown i have PCOS. I had accepted that and it did give some answers to all of whats happening for me in that department. He has said that i have more cysts then ovaries (on both of them).
What i wasnt prepared for is he has said that its very unlikeley even with treatments that i will ever be able to have kids of my own. Even if i was to concieve its likely it wont last very long. He has explained the reasoning behind this but i dont really think i need to go into that. I asked if ovaries have to be removed and he said no, unless further down the track thats what i want to do.
He has told me that we can manage the symptoms with some options. I have one option atm im trying for now but ive discussed the other options and have agreed to try another once my op is sorted out if they are able to get it in as pap tests are tricky as it is now. There are other options to manahe some external things but some are expensive and/or time consuming so i have to think about those and what might be best in the long term.
I keep wondering if somehow my brain knew something was wrong. Ive said for years i wasnt sure on having kids of my own but that was a decision i could change but not anymore... is this my fault, have i done something to cause this or could i have done something to prevent it..
There was already alot on my mind without this. I go back in 6 weeks to get another result and see if i need to be refferred elsewhere for another symptom but so far no explaination along with the agreed procedure.
It all seems very measy here atm, and so confusing that this is happening and also the symptoms i thought were normal (besides some ive mentioned here before) arent normal but rather just another thing to confirm these diagnoses.
