The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[outlander]

Im just going to take a shower then ill come back @Sans911

[Sans911]

That sounds really scary. I hope there's not too much damage from the fire. I finished my Milo so I'm going to say goodnight and I will try to stop by for a while tomorrow.

Goodnight also @Shaz51 @Zoe7 @Former-Member @Teej @CheerBear @Faith-and-Hope 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[outlander]

Its ok none were hurt and they got the fire out pretty quickly. Theyve left now. @Sans911
Hope you can get some sleep tonight. Hugs and 💜goodnight 😴

[Zoe7]

@Sans911 Thinking of you and hoping your recovery is going well and the nurses are still looking after you 

[Sans911]

Evening @Zoe7. Still in hospital but hopefully home tomorrow. I still have one drain that the drs would prefer I didn't go home with. I didn't stop by the forums yesterday as I fell deep in a black hole 🕳 of self pity and si. I'm better today but still very low in mood. I didn't necessarily like the body I had before but now I have a body that hurts, is bruised, looks and feels weird and I wonder if I should have done nothing about my diagnosis. It might have progressed very slowly to an earlier end, so why do I keep fighting so hard to stay alive when sometimes I fight so hard to leave as well? I think the worst thing yesterday was not one nurse noticed my emotional pain, yet it's so easy to see and fix the physical. I so wanted someone to notice, but then what can they do anyway about it? I make life easy for myself in hospital as I'm often very independent and I try not to ask for much. This then makes my life difficult as I'm left alone for very long periods of time. It's a conundrum that I've never resolved. I need care and attention as much as others, sometimes more, but I'm so conditioned to not being allowed to have as others needs come first. Sorry, another ramble.

@outlander @Faith-and-Hope @Teej @CheerBear @Appleblossom @Snowie @Shaz51

Evening all

[CheerBear]

Sending you hugs @Sans911. I felt the feels reading your post. As understandable as it is, that sounds like a really hard place to be in ❤

[Sans911]

Thanks @CheerBear 💕 💕

I hope I didn't bring your mood down, or anyone else's. It's a fine balance being here in the forums trying to offload, share a little but not wanting to hurt others with your words. It's a fine balance living too, let alone living with mental illness when much of your emotional energy fights with you everyday.

[Shaz51]

hugs my @Sans911  and sitting with you xoxo

[Zoe7]

Ramble away @Sans911 It is indeed a conundrum. So often those that have been in the caring professional forget that they also need and deserve the same level of care at times. I do understand that need to look after yourself though as we have so often been the only ones that have done that for ourselves - that makes it super hard when you are in hospital and feeling alone Hon. Don't be afraid to ask for that help - especially when you are emotionally doing it tough - you do deserve the same compassion you would show to others. Take advantage of that need while you are in there and accept the help - it is what you deserve sweetheart 

[CheerBear]

You didnt bring my mood down @Sans911 and I know everyone you tagged cares about you and I'm thinking wants to hear from you when you'd like to share. Offloading is good if it helps you. I find balance of all kinds tricky. More hugs ❤