We all need to manage our self talk. We all tend to do better with a forgiving attitude to ourselves and to others.
I have never believed in a harsh god, I was told about earlier fire and brimstone sermons, and felt relatively fortunate, that the Catholic theology I grew up with focused on God is Love, but the fact is that my circumstances were pretty harsh, and that is something I understand more and more as I learn about other life styles. I guess I am no longer believing in omniscience and omnipotence the way I was taught. I also have not had “prayers answered”. I just don’t think that way. Most of my prayers for my loved ones have not been answered. I don’t like platitudes, but I do like Christians who have ethics, but they seem a pretty mixed bunch. For me it is about doing my best and finding ways to fit in and contribute, church, state, community or private.
In a lot of my music there are sacred aspects, even my secular choir decided themselves they wanted to do The Prayer. I had the music so we have been doing it. I am careful that I don’t want to impose my religion on others… so I try to be guided by…what could be called the Holy Spirit. I do have a Koran and Islamic prayer mat I bought in 1981, I really try to be inclusive, but am probably pretty whacky….more on the mystics path… than religious….though was at church choir practice… singing Blokey bit, as they needed me in tenor.
