Christian Chat

[ENKELI]

@avant-garde whoa! My response was in now way passive aggressive and that you replied the way you did is very hurtful.

I'm sorry you misread my message, it can be difficult to interpret text based messages. 

All I was saying is that I knew the role of the Pastor and Elders and just wanted clarification of what a Deacon does in your church.

I'm really upset at your very aggressive response, especially since my answer was NOT aggressive in the slightest.

I am going to step away for the time being so that I can get over this. I am actually crying now.

[Ru-bee]

Hey @ENKELI @avant-garde reading through here I can see that there's been a bit of miscommunication which I think has been mostly down to the difficulties in communicating only over text - it can be so easy to misinterpret, or to read posts in a tone which was not intended by the writer.

@ENKELI I'm glad that you're able to take a step away, it's important to look after yourself in these situations. Take all the time you need, we're here when you're ready 💜

When you're both feeling up to it I might offer for you each to try re-reading these posts, but focusing on reading them in a kind, caring tone and seeing if that changes what you take away from the words there. 

[ENKELI]

@Ru-bee I appreciate what you have suggested but I was very mindful of how I responded as I am well aware of how some people react to my messages. 

I have read and re-read my post, I got my brother and my friend to read my post and they didn't see anything wrong with it.

I can't be on a forum and be treated this way as it brings back severe emotional memories. 

I am safe but I feel like doing something unsafe because of all this.

[Ru-bee]

I hear you @ENKELI I'm not suggesting that there was anything wrong with the way your post was worded, rather that our own perceptions, experiences, mood, trauma etc can impact the way we take in information. And this can be even more amplified when we don't have other things like tone of voice, body language, or facial expressions to go along with the words we're taking in. 

 I hear that has touched on difficult emotions for you - Are you needing any additional support at the moment?

[Blackcloud]

Hi @ENKELI I’m sorry to hear that you’re thinking about doing something unsafe. I wonder if you’re able to ground yourself in the moment and take some deeeeep deeeep breaths for the moment to keep yourself in the present moment? ❤️

I’m here for you my friend. 🌟 

[heartathome]

You might have already gotten off @Appleblossom.

I just wanted to say that's what I like about Thomas in the Bible and what he said to Jesus - I believe, help my unbelief. It's my prayer!

I trust God but I don't trust authority! I talked to @Jynx about authority last night!

I think it's a miracle that you are able to have any kind of relationship with God!

Please be gentle on yourself Appleblossom! 💛

 

[REDLINEZ750]

@Appleblossom  i hope your still there, i dont want you to think im not mutual if you have a different belief than me.

i think your awesome and super intelligent,

people get threatened by  intelligence

AI kept telling me that nuance word i asked what is it think i googled it first still none the wiser.

it comes back with " your struggle to relate to its meaning is nuanced' something like it.

think i picked a fight with it after that.

i overthinked i had said something unbecoming in a post and caused you misery last night and was cowardly  when saw @Appleblossom  MEntioned you in post i i actually wanted to close lap top put my head in hands and start making loud repetitive noises while rocking back n forth.

but said to self,  self  i want to know if i have so dont do it again its @Appleblossom  you dickhead if she take the time to set you  straight then we are good .

learn from it, be sincere, stay on track keep it short. that was limit of my capacity so when i saw this post i felt like the worcestishire cat then kept reading   and r i got to keep it short please know i have a reason to believe in my faith thats tangible yet i know if it wasnt id still think the church and its lies and the barbaric treatment of other humans  was a f433n joke. just on lived experience  so yeah i know ill never hear your story for it being too much for some thats one thing i wonder could work for forums 

they say in group theres time out rooms,  it would be cool if users could request to break away from the main forum to release weight carried with select others they feel could take it while still knowing  personal and private and of course anoninmissness rules still applied as does monitoring.

or a room where a wieght can be lessened then whoever selected can access it for set time after notification is acknowledged.

basically  @Appleblossom i think your good value and i respect your mind and posts.

i dont need to know details or ages as a lost sibling is a lost sibling and thats a constant hole that never fills it just gets easier to contain over time.

if i can be honest i  get lost i thought you were possibly Koori born and stolen in the name of god for your own good and i say that with my face screwed up and disgust on every letter knowing nothing i could ever experience would bring me close to knowing what they experienced this is not questioning or any tomfuckery i just want you to know i think i got it wrong its not important, what matters is you were deprived love and tenderness you deserved and abused one way or another till you broke away.

ive deleted paragraphs so im stopping i just want you know you are seen and valued by me umm and i respect you and thank you for your humble wisdom, i am mutual and dont need tag you here i missed that and apologise for being self centered lately