@AuntGlow I actually wrote something in my journal this week - prompted by you on Thursday night, to write a couple of lines asking myself what my heart needed. I haven't touched it since, but I got something down. My counsellor has also talked me with using a rating system based on how numb/disconnected I'm feeling. I haven't started yet, but my journal could be a good space for that.
I think I need to take the pressure off of myself to write big insightful journal entries, the pressure to find the words to describe how I'm feeling, the pressure to dig into the feelings and just let what comes out, come out - even if it's only a sentence on the page, or a word, or a score out of ten.
I am...feeling pretty vulnerable. Last week was a big week and I've had a big weekend, that maybe I acknowledge I shouldda...coulda sought medical care, or reached out for support and I chose not to. Today's been lighter, easier and less hectic but I'm exhausted. I just need some TLC and someone to help me build a functional safety plan, that suits my needs. This is already happening slowly with AuntGlow.
My intention for the week...
Keep working on journalling
To have a functional safety plan that meets my needs, that I'm comfortable using by the end of this week.
To get a seven day streak of breathing exercises on Smiling Minds @tyme
