Feeling caged up

[AuntGlow]

Hey @GezzaP - how was the chiro? Feeling a little lighter? ✨

Thank you for updating me @creative_writer, here with you, always. It sounds like your body needs lots of softness and soothing - could softening into action be your intention this week? So you can meet your body where it's at? 🫶

[GezzaP]

Chiro cracked and massaged my back, shoulders and neck. At least my headache has gone away. But still hurts.

[creative_writer]

@GezzaP I get bad migraines during hypomania, there might be a connection between hypomania and pain. My pain is worse during hypomania than depression (I still get pain during depression), it’s weird. Lack of sleep can also be bad for pain. I hope you start feeling better.

@AuntGlow I reached out to Butterfly Foundation this morning. It helped to be able to talk through the thoughts. I’ve used up my physio sessions for this year, but will get a new referral for next. Now might be a good time to start researching. I could do some stretches, I’ll also massage my head later this evening. I’ve got the wooden and bamboo brush. I feel like I’ve been getting auras most days if not everyday lately, might need to monitor it

[GezzaP]

@creative_writer When I’m stressed by depression or hypomania and not sleeping I get back and neck pain which causes headaches. It is worst when I’m hypomanic and not sleeping properly. I just nodded off. A good sign that the adjustment to my meds is starting to work and also chiro. Is relaxing my muscles. Will go to bed shortly even though it is a bit early. Will do exercises first though. I will still take some painkillers tonight.

Glad to hear you called butterfly foundation and reached out. Take care.

[creative_writer]

@GezzaP hoping the pain settles and your sleep is restful tonight.

There is still a lot on my mind, it’s just how my mind is. I was born with a loud mind

[GezzaP]

I am in less pain. Still waking up early. Like now! 
hope your brain switches off.

[AuntGlow]

I am glad you reached out to the Butterfly Foundation. @creative_writer I can see you really focusing on what you can control and taking steps forward in a way that will support your mind and body. I know it's hard and slow progress at times, but I hope you're proud of your patience and consistency here - it's not at all easy, but you're doing it. 🥰

[creative_writer]

Hey @GezzaP how are you today? 💖

@AuntGlow experiencing dissociation since this morning, it is leaving me feeling apathetic. I have been noticing it more during the past few days, but then maybe I didn't have as much insight before. Might be something to work on with the psych, I have been dissociating since I was small. It is hard to not keep going into that state if it kept me feeling safer for so long. It is really lonely, I wonder if it is one of the reasons why it is hard to connect to people. I did reach out to a helpline this morning, did my workout, breathing exercise, prayers, had my cuppa. Probably need more self care.

I hope today has been kind towards you 💖

[GezzaP]

@creative_writer I slept badly again so I’m still hypomanic. But I managed to have a couple of snoozes in the armchair this morning. Walked to local shop. They forecast showers but the sun is out.
My back and neck are much better and for the first time in days I don’t have a headache. Will keep doing exercises.
Did some filing in the middle of the night was long overdue.

Have had heater on for a couple of hours so nice and cosy in my place. Feel I can snooze again. Then I might walk down to local hairdresser to book an appt.
Just had lunch. Bought a bbq chicken so had some of that. Will make Mexican Aztec soup with the carcass. Tummy still upset but all in all I’m pretty good today.

How are you?

[AuntGlow]

Hey @GezzaP!! How is your body feeling today? 🥰

@creative_writer It sounds like your awareness is growing, which isn't a bad thing at all, though of course it can be disorienting and overwhelming at times. Bringing it up with your psychologist could be really helpful. I am sure we have talked about the Holistic Psychologist before, but she has some practices you can explore when you're feeling this way: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9DmEW7udsrs

It makes complete sense why your body and mind fall into this place. And it would be tough connecting with others when you're not feel connected to yourself... but I get the sense that when you're feeling safe, things are a little easier, right? 

Those practices sound really grounding, yay! 💛