Feeling caged up

[GezzaP]

Yes she is @creative_writer Her dad had bipolar. She also wrote a microstory about bipolar. Going to bed now tired.

[tyme]

Have a good rest @GezzaP 

[creative_writer]

@GezzaP I hope you sleep well tonight. It does help finding people who understand.

I’ve struggled to find those people, so I just up carrying a lot of it on my own. I rather be alone than open up and not get the support I need. This mindset has made it harder to open up to supports, so I’m trying to work on it because I might have taken it too far

[tyme]

Are you able to speak to the therapist to find a balance between sharing and over-sharing @creative_writer ? I wonder if the therpaist can guide you with this and provide regular check-ins to see if you are comfortable continuing?

I just want to acknowledge the huge steps you are taking as part of your recovery.

[creative_writer]

@tyme I can try to talk to my psych. She agreed we need to exercise caution due to make retraumatisation history. At the same time, I am mindful that I do need to talk about difficult topics to a certain degree.

[GezzaP]

I only slept 4 hours again @creative_writer . Hoping can go hack to sleep soon and at least get a couple more hours.

I find opening up to psychologist really helpful. They can’t help you without all the information. That’s when they can help the most if you don’t hide your feelings and troubles.

[GezzaP]

I only slept 4 hours @tyme . Slept deeply but hoping can get a couple more hours. Wide awake atm.

[creative_writer]

@GezzaP I hope you are able to get more hours of sleep in.

It’s a tricky situation, caution must be exercised to prevent retraumatisation, but I also need to talk about it to a certain degree

[GezzaP]

@creative_writer I slept for another hour so 5 hours. Waiting for 3rd painting quote to arrive. He better be on time because I need lunch before I go out. He is supposed to come at 11.30. Not ideal time for me.

Will have to put lunch on as soon as he leaves. Might not have time to do dishes after lunch as I will need a coffee.

Looking forward to seeing my friend except that I have to drive. I hate driving.

I hope you can open up at least a little bit more.

[AuntGlow]

I hear you @creative_writer. I have been in a similar place... and you know what, having my psych react with love and compassion helped to alleviate some of that shame. There is absolutely no rush to share, but I genuinely think it could be helpful.

Have you ever shared something with her that you were afraid to, but then she reacted kindly and with support? 💛