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I am with you @Bubbles3 Heart

@Mazarita

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I tried to write about you today
But as I put pen to paper
I realised there was nothing to say
There were no feelings to describe
No identity of yours to try and capture
I tried to bring up memories
To stir something in me
But they all seemed so long ago
So far away from today
That I could barely remember you at all
There was nothing to miss
Nothing to love
And nothing to like
And as I stared at the blank page in front of me
I realised I'd captured you after all
Perfectly

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I've been fighting my demons for fourteen years, 
And I've run out of energy to fight. 
The sun may be shining outside of this room 
But in my soul it's night. 
At times I've imagined I'd come out on top 
Of the Demons inside of my head. 
And in a way I suppose I WAS winning the fight 
If I hadn't, by now I'd be dead. 
But now the dark clouds have regathered, 
And I've lost my last semblance of hope. 
Fear and despair have erased it, 
And without it there's no way to cope. 
My life has no purpose or meaning 
There's nothing inside me but fear. 
Fear over whether I'll continue 
To find life so dark and drear 
Because, I'm afraid if this goes on, 
There will be only one last path left 
And if, in my weakness I take it 
I doubt anyone will be bereft… 

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moving @Bubbles3 extremely moving - and spot on Smiley Sad

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A carpet across my soul 
Blinkers upon my eyes 
Cotton wool stuffed in my brain 
No feeling left but fear. 
Fear over whether I’ll go on, 
Fear over whether I won’t… 
Fear about whether I’m right, 
Stark terror at the thought that I’m wrong… 
Fear that I’ll be forever Alone, 
Fear that I won’t get the chance… 
Fear that nobody wants to help me, 
Fear that I'll find that they do… 
Fear that they’ll know that I’m Weak, 
Fear that I’m not able to be strong… 
Fear that I’ll pull them down with me… 
Fear… 
Just fear. 

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I know that place well @Bubbles3 - I hear you Heart

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@Bubbles3 how is Gizmo - still as cute as ever?!

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They say I am mad
That I am evil
And creepy
That my genes are corrupted
And my brain is deformed
That my actions are freaky
That my behavior is not the norm

They then ask me the question
“Sir why are you this way?”
I tell them as such:
“A genetic predispisation
An environment unsound
The reasons for madness
Don’t matter to me
For I believe
In the world
Of impossibility”

Wacko Schizo
Psycho and nuts
Call me whatever
I don’t mind
For I can escape
To a strange world
And leave you behind.

I’ve seen places from hell
with fires and flames
Of torture and madness
It’s name is taboo
Psychosis, psychosis
Does it scare you?

Madness, Madness
A self destruct button
That I pressed
Years ago
To blast off on a mission
To a planet
Where the aliens are free
To play with
My memories

Here things are different
Many say they are strange
Here it’s the “normals”
That are deranged
If you want to be different
If you want to be free
From logic and reason
Then come and meet me
On this strange planet called
Insanity