not coping

[Eve7]

Sorry to hear that @outlander 

What has happened? Only if you want to talk.

[outlander]

my mental health is declining. i couldnt work out what really set my triggers off today to the point of sh again and i ended up working it out. ive decided to stop seeing the psych i started seeing because its her thats triggerring me by saying things are in my head and that i should go onto disability pensions and just accept that i have the disability and that i have alot of limits. i tried to share my future plans like all the positive ones that i had in mind if i can ever get back to normal or more manageable then what it is now and she shut it all down and said that its not likely.
and then i restirred myself up when i was trying to get paper work together for these out of state appts but i overwhelmed myself in realising how much has changed but not for the better. today just got the better of me and then to keep myself safe i asked a trusted friend to keep a hold of some things i had in my car until tomorrow when i see her because i needed to go driving for a while to have a breather and get my urges under control but to many temptations around. ive never done that either, its one of the first times ive paniced at the urges, usually i jsut accept that it is what it is and set backs happen @Eve7 

[Eve7]

Oh @outlander  that must have been so hard for you! Sharing your goals and then to have them devalued is awful. Of course you can achieve your dreams hon, lots of people do achieve with whatever is put in front of them and you will achieve yours. How dare that psych try to take away your dreams…makes me cross.

Please stay safe tonight, you matter 💙💙

[outlander]

I’m safe @Eve7 it just had so many emotions running that I couldn’t think straight.

She probably thought she was trying to be helpful by getting me to accept my new limitations and to stick goals that are probably more achievable then some i currently have/had but it definitely didn’t come across that way. It more sounded like I should accept my date and just go on disability now.

[outlander]

*fate not date

[Eve7]

Wait and sede what happens with your interstate appointment @outlander  I wish I could come and support you but I’ll be there in spirit 💙💙

[outlander]

Haven’t got much expectations for that either @Eve7 just when I get my hopes up they get ripped away so I guess we will just need to wait and see. It’s only a couple of weeks away now.

[Eve7]

I’ll do the positive thinking for you than @outlander 

[outlander]

@Eve7 💜

[Eve7]

A morning cuppa for you @outlander