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[Former-Member]

Hey @outlander!, haven't caught up yet ,followed a bit during the day,were you given local anaesthetic or knocked out at the hospital ?How many stitures?
I'm alright,bit tired, and worried about humiliation and let down of another interview,plus a bit stressed over my mother.

[outlander]

Thats ok @Former-Member so much to explain but in short i had a surgury that was with local aneastetic but instead of closing they sent the samples to pathology and for results back in around half hour and had to get more taken out then go the all clear to close up. It was all under local. I had one of the hosp prn sedatives when i got there and got home about 5ish. Alot of suture @Former-Member the incision runs from just before my underarm and under and through the orginal incision from 2 weeks ago and then a bit further down
Im not really handling it now. I was ok but im not now all those suppressed emotions from the sedative are now appearing.
Good luck for your interview tomorrow ❤ i know your worried. I would be too but your doing the very best you can ❤❤

[outlander]

Why is this so hard just because emotions are suppressed dowsnt mean they havr to come back out in full force!

[MDT]

hey @outlander

that's awesome news about your surgery! what a relief it must be!

all good for not replying to the stuff i wrote the other day, no sweat. To be honest sometimes I feel like I ramble on with all sorts of crap. But I'm glad you found some of it helpful and useful.

I'm up late tonight as I have an online exam for uni tomorrow. I'm cramming. Hopefully I will finish the exam before the NBN man rocks up or else that will be a tad awkward.

Go get some rest mate. You deserve it. You've had one hell of a week!

[Former-Member]

Worse than I thought @outlander but good outcome.You were lucky you saw that.Make sure you get the doctor to check every year.
Thanks,but haven't slept much I will go in looking like shit by 415 this afternoon by the time I run my mother around.Rather not have my mother with me,she needs the doctor as she stresses me and puts my anxiety up.Just hope I don't come home and fall into depression.Haveca good day.You too @Sans 911

[outlander]

😞 😞

[outlander]

Thanks @MDT yes good ita gone now. Thanks for understanding. Good luck with your exam today. ❤❤

@Former-Member yeah not expected yesterday but better than having the third surgury. I havent alept much either and my anxiety isnt happy today and struggling alot of emotions already this morning.
Hope your appt goes well today and if it doesnt well theres other jobs out there and someone will eventually open their eyes and see your potential ❤❤🌼🌼

[CheerBear]

Good morning @outlander. Sorry to hear you're struggling with emotions today 😞

Have you seen the community garden? I was wondering if you'd like to put some of those beautiful photos you took of the flowers and plants you saw at the gardens a while ago, in the garden here? No rush or pressure at all (and totally ok if you don't want to too).

Our garden here is a pretty lovely place. If you're wanting another nice distraction at some stage, it would be great to see you there.

Hope there's something that can give you some comfort from the tough times today 💗

[outlander]

I havent really ventuured out @CheerBear but ill take a look what section is the garden in? I like nature so might be a good placeto get away to.

I just want to hide away and dissapear and not be here for at least the next week or 2.

Hope theres some light in your day ❤❤❤

[CheerBear]

It's in the enjoying time with others section @outlander 🙂 I think venturing over that way can add to a nice balance here, but I get that it can be very hard to do.

Wanting to hide away and disappear is understandable with all that you have going on. It can be very hard to find the good (the reasons to not hide away or disappear) sometimes. It's there though, perhaps it's clouded by all the not so good at the moment 😘