I was on medication for anxiety for over 7 years. I made the decision to stop taking the medication cold turkey about 7 months ago - without any GP or psychologist support. Really silly, I know but I was over the side effects. I had put on loads of weight, I was sleeping all the time but mostly I hated the feeling of having no emotions. I am super emotional. I get upset by injustices in the world. When I was on the meds I just was flat.
Now I'm really struggling with anxiety. I am back seeing a psychologist but am not back on the drugs (although my GP has given me a prescription). I have a constant feeling of dread to the point of physical pain.
I don't want to go back on medication. I want to be me. Sometimes I think we need more people in the world who do get angry at things being so unfair...the way people with intellectual disabilities are treated is my 'thing'.
Anyway. I'd love to hear what you think. Medication vs emotion (and struggling with anxiety).
I'm sorry no-one's replied to your post before now. I've suffered with anxiety and know how devistating it can be, so I'm here to support you any way I can.
I'm sorry you've found yourself in this situation, though I don't quite understand this lack of emotion you describe. From what you've written, it sounds more like you've lost your passion than emotion itself. I sort of get that because I've been there.
If you think about it, passion for life or worldly concerns, tends to get in the way of recovery as it's all about getting to know yourself better and finding new ways of approaching life. Anxiety's caused through the brain's fight/flight/freeze response being overwhelmed by stress, so rest and living a simple existence for a while does heaps to get back on track.
All that adrenaline pumping through your body at any given time isn't healthy as you'd know. Retraining your brain to work properly again takes time, patience and commitment; it's a slow step by step process of undoing old dysfunctional habits and replacing them with functional ones.
It took me 4 years to gain some semblence of passion back into my life after my breakdown. I cried with relief when it happened because it'd been so long since I'd felt that drive and will. It was a long process with lots of hard work undoing all the damage stress and trauma had done. Developing a new sense of self was my goal; to have more confidence and ability to cope with life's challenges.
Medication alone can't do this for you. It might numb the anxiety, but it doesn't help to treat the 'cause' of your disorder. Do you have an idea of the reasons why anxiety began in the first place? I'd love to read your story if you're up to telling me.
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It's lovely to meet you Beth. I hope you see this as I feel there's lots I can offer in the way of support. Please take care; I look forward to hearing from you.
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