@Anastasia The fellow that told me to church shop, gave me loan of a book and exchanged phone numbers next time I went there. I have not called him yet, but felt so relieved to see a book on Theology that aligned with my thinking, then he also was doing history of area my ancestors came from and got a lot of things about my history cos he had studied it. Immediately on same page without trying too much. He also was interested in coming to choir concert. He introduced me to both his wives ... lol ... each time it was a different person ... one was an ex ... I checked online and it was legit and consistent with his profile.
Another fellow asked me for coffee.
Also met a few women in "fellowship" who I thought I might get along with ... musically and theologically.
So that is all great ... gives me optimisim ... I need a local tribe ...as I cannot keep up all the travel.
and helps me get over recent issue with Gp and vulnerable slightly confused Christian music friend who has a triggering way and blaming way of expressing his religiosity. Bringing up god's wrath and making out his pipeline to god and faith was better than anything I had experienced ... as he knew all about the fallacy of the religion of my birth ... weary sigh ...but I knew he was frail (serious physical illness) and vulnerable from beginning which is my old pattern ... trying to help the vulnerable from a VERY vulnerable position. Need to learn what is my circus and monkeys ... ala @Faith-and-Hope How are you Bella?
Chipping away at things is one of my mottos too. Anastasia.
Hi @Appleblossom - just checking in how you are? Haven't seen you about for a while. You sound busy. Had to have a chuckle to hear that saying again "not my circus, not my monkeys" 👍 ( hi @Faith-and-Hope @Teej ) good reminder... reminds me of the family caos I've walked away from down south. We do have to distance somehow.
Sound like your working really hard to find your tribe. Hope you do find options closer to home. Love to know how it goes, how you cope with the social anxiety that we all feel from time to time, at different degrees. But guess distancing with these kinds affirmations helps.
With your post, couple days back, was that a list of music books? I'm still waiting for the alto recorder music to arrive (from the US through shop) but really enjoy playing the Alto more than the descant, even just by ear... such a nicer tone 🎶
Not sure why, but I'm feeling really teary / vulnerable lately, hesitant to step out with people, even here.. so my music, the garden, sewing, pup, prayer, you guys and my son keep me going [gosh, sounds good to list like that 🤔] so thanks for being part of that ❣️
sewing music garden pup prayer and son ... is a great list.... its enough ... that way when different social stuff happens ... you are still anchored ... by what counts ... and the social stuff is nice when it works ... but not enough to tip your cart ...
@Former-Member
the depth of the alto is calming for me ...
The list was the different types of music I am currently doing ... piano, recorder and voice. So plenty to keep me busy.
I am good. Had serious share with support wkr about my brother and sister, and then we went for a lovely walk by the beach. It was sunny with bracing wind.
Hugs @Emelia8 @Anastasia
Your walk along the beach sounds nice @Appleblossom and I'm glad you took the time to do so. 🏖
I love to walk along the beach in the earlyish morning and at sunset, mostly when its quiet and mostly deserted.
Its pleasing to hear Apple that you are feeling 'good' right now. 👍💖 Whatever has contributed to that feeling ... try to keep doing it. 😊 Hi @Former-Member 🤗💕 hugs to you and a cuddle for Georgia Girl. 🐶
Emelia