Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please

[Former-Member]

I just can't find my way out of this dark place.  Maybe best just to hide here. Scared of being alone, no support, no family, no friends. Don't feel I belong anywhere, even on this forum.  Felt judgement from some people that left me feeling isolated.  I will never be able to connect.  Don't think like other people.  Always weird, strange.   

Bad person, should never been born.

[Former-Member]

It will never end!  I realise this now. What a fool I was to think he'd just leave me alone. Why should he, I can't connect to people. The others are now following his example and seem to be enjoying themselves. The hatred they have towards me is visceral.  Everyday the bullying newer and crueller.  I am imprisoned and I am scared of these men.  I used to believe in a greater power but I don't anymore. I hope they destroy my will to live because that's what they're slowly driving me to. I'm starting to feel safer in my dark place.  

[Former-Member]

I understand now.  I am like a disease.  Come near me and you'll catch it.  Can you catch it on the forum?  Maybe best I keep away.  Okay then.

[Blackcloud]

The world is so cruel. 
Also, why’s the rise of AI/ATS generated systems regarding resumes make it extremely hard for anyone to get a job?? I swear those resume computerised systems need to be gone!!!

And the fact that none of the recruitment agencies I’ve sent my resumes to have gotten back to me regarding a job they have available all because they currently don’t have any job vacancies available at the moment. Like ugh…!!!😒😒😒

I just wanna get paid more than the amount I’m currently getting from Centrelink. Well, Centrelink is already ass in a lot of ways.

[Blackcloud]

I wonder if I can continue to apply for housing, but the thing about this is that the staff at the housing office is widely known for being rude and not caring about their residents at all, so the thought of having to contact them or go to their office in cases like…getting a house key from them….yeah, no. Best if I rent a place instead then instead of applying for housing because of the staff at the housing office.

Well at least I hope I can stay in my student accomodation as many few years as possible then since that’s one of my main options as of now, as long as I don’t happen to wanting to drop out of uni before I graduate from a course…

[Blackcloud]

I really hope that the NDIS senior complaints officer gets back to me either today or sometime next week real quick cause I need to know how I’m going with applying for the change of circumstances as well as the outcome of it!!!
Please I quickly need those additional supports with the NDIS… :/// including the psychology supports obviously.

I’m not gonna go to the GP to get a MHCP cause I’m not spending money out of pocket with any of the upcoming psych appointments as I already have other stuff I need to purchase on a monthly basis, and those basic needs are quite expensive but they are health related so. 

[Blackcloud]

No thoughts, just sad.

[Blackcloud]

Why do my hands get dry everytime I wash my hands with cold water. 😕 and it’s not that there’s the hot water option available in any of the sinks that I’m using including the one in my house either.

i hate having to keep on using a moisturizer but oh well. 😐

[Blackcloud]

I just want to run away and hide 

[Blackcloud]

Why can’t my parents and my sister ever listen to me and acknowledge my feelings. 🤦‍♀️😐