✨Sunday Intention Setting✨

[PeppyPatti]

@Oaktree @AuntGlow @Captain24 @peaceandsafety @Dimity 

Dear @Oaktree @you know the funny thing is that I bet your friends all might need little times out too 

it is so interesting you are writing that to me That I bet it’s easy for other people to forget but you got your class to see those Joe dispenza video didn’t you ? I was quite impacted on that but I find it hard to watch his video. I bought an audible on Joe dispenza I listen to every now and again and that’s wonderful in the guided meditation 

@Captain24 ide be gentle with you. I’m wondering if you are putting your job at risk though lol 

@Dimity @peaceandsafety 

@TAB 

[Bunniekins]

@AuntGlow  i am starting with eating better. today i ate all organic veggies healthy carbs and protein. i am aiming to eat more veggies, fruit and protein. no junk food at all. that is the aim to set an example to my children and myself that i can do this. 

[Oaktree]

@AuntGlow 

My intention for the year ahead is to lose weight. I am going to start after my friends leave. I have bought a book on audible about hypnotic gastric banding.

Hopefully it works out. I have listened to the first part and it makes sense.

[Shaz51]

Hello @AuntGlow 😍

My intention for the year ahead is to 

1) to keep my physical health problems stable (kidney disease)

2) to keep my gardens heathy and growing (more flowering plants)

To begin with, we're keeping it simple: I invite you to set an intention that feels light, accessible, and achievable. So, if you check-in with where you're at and work from that place - what could that look like for you? 

how about you 😍

@The-red-centaur , @Spirit_Healer , @Faith-and-Hope @Judi9877 @Emelia8 , @SleeplessRaven @oceangirl , @john74 , @Alily @FearofUnknown , @Healandlove @Anastasia 

[NightFury]

@AuntGlow is the intention we're setting for the year, or is it for a shorter period of time, like this week? 

[Oaktree]

@NightFury 

I did both but you can do either 

[BlueBay]

Hi @AuntGlow 

My intention for the week is to get to the bottom of my pains and hoping to get results of my breath test. 

[Rosepetal96]

@AuntGlow finding a small joy to pull from a moment in the day ✨️ 

[peaceandsafety]

@AuntGlow 

Thanks for the kind words.
I ended it with no reply. No reply IS a response.
I see it all so clearly now, not just my own patterns and cycles, but the deceit that was presented to me in a righteous form.
I found the words to describe the state that I am in, Trauma Bond Withdrawal.

I've had other friends disappoint me as well. The few that have showed up, they showed up with meaning and purpose.

You ask about this year... that seems incredibly long and makes me feel panic.
This month, and the next 2, if I am fortunate enough, HOPE will keep for me onboard for the full 3 month term.
I have an assigned peer support person, access to an OT, a nutritionist, possibly a psychiatrist, but I know how that story goes as I've been through it enough times.
They will spend time with me every week and I will have access to their face to face support group during the time.

I do appreciate this forum and, I also need human connection.
For the first time, I spoke to someone, who has lived BPD experience and in remission.
Not words on a screen, a story, from another persons mouth to my ears.

Other than HOPE, I have my DBT psych.
I've been pushed back on the MBT waitlist.
I'm not stable enough (considered just exiting acute crisis) and they prefer I only work with one psych at a time.

So what does my support look like this year? I don't know. HOPE will be done by mid March, I'll have DBT, 2 friends who make so much effort for me and 2 who whilst they don't understand, I know would walk through fire to carry me through it.
Amongst all this I need to manage a high pressure job and need to keep moving. I didn't walk or gym for 2 weeks, I sedated, slept and grieved.

To answer your question around how can the forum help, I don't know. 
I appreciate the check ins and the tagging, I'm not sure what I can offer right now.

[Blackcloud]

@AuntGlow my intention at the moment is to get a MHCP for a referral to a therapist that provides all sorts of therapy styles that are appropriate for a specific concern I’ve been dealing with for most of my life, like ACT, DBT, schema therapy etc. luckily I’ve found a specific therapy service that I wish to get referred to because what they’ve mentioned on their website seems to match on what I’m looking for for a neurodiverse-affirming therapist like them.