Tabaluga's 2.0

[SmilingGecko]

Good Morning @TAB @GezzaP @DownMoreThanUp @PeppyPatti @ENKELI @StuF @Meowmy

Had a reasonable nights sleep last night. The weather has cooled since yesterday, it seems rather crisp out there this morning

[Meowmy]

@TAB hey tabby, still at Cafe, coffee seems to help.

[DownMoreThanUp]

@SmilingGecko Yes it is chilly over here as well, a bit of drizzle just before. Winter is getting closer. Brrr.

@TAB @Meowmy @GezzaP @PeppyPatti 

For me it is to learn to take care of myself where it hurts, so anger wont flare again when they blasts me. For i no longer expect any change from my loved ones. They sold me out completely and worked very hard getting my wife to do the same.  They do not want me to be angry with them, but work very hard to make sure i hurt the situation hurts most, apart of my wife and Down syndrome daughter then.

It seems so unfair i may not be angry, which has been true 95 percent of the time - all these years, but they are allowed to keep on hurting me for the rest of my life, as has increasingly been the case not allowed to hurt whjat is going on. i know i have  only ever sought to heal our rifts, and repair our hurts, but they have been unwilling for over 30 years now for it is far easier to turn me into the scapegoat.

My spiel for today trying to stay afloat.

[ENKELI]

@GezzaP I sincerely hope you get a decent sleep tonight and that you can rest up today. Being wide awake all night is the pits. 

[ENKELI]

@SmilingGecko cool, thanks for that. I might try eBay. Hope your weekend goes well x

[GezzaP]

Cool here now the rain has arrived. Only slept 2 hours last night. Took extra sleep med but still couldn’t sleep. Will try acupressure points tonight. Put my indoor plants out to get the rain. Had a massage this morning back feels better had only one lime water this morning. Will relax today, but do need to do some cooking because meat I took out of freezer thawed. Cooking chicken first then lamb shank and finally the snags. Glad you slept ok. Have a good day. Ps my footy team one by kicking a goal in the final 10 seconds was exciting. 

[GezzaP]

Yes not sleeping is awful and it makes me manic. Will try to snooze today. Taking it easy but do have to cook some thawed out meat.

[SmilingGecko]

You poor love @GezzaP, you are trying your best, so sorry you are not getting much sleep. It must be so hard trying to cope with that. Third eye is connected to melatonin production and mental health disorders, you could give your pineal some support by unblocking and balancing this chakra. It might work I dont know but I do know this - you give it all youve got. You must feel so awful having to face uncomfortable sleepless nights with debilitating mood swings. I'm really sorry you are facing this alone it must be so hard having a broken routine that you work so hard to maintain

[GezzaP]

Yes it is hard @SmilingGecko . Hoping can meditate into a nap later today. Opened some parcels. Some cat treats and meal toppers and a kitchen utensil I desperately needed. Had a massage this morning. Did I tell you I had a flat tyre yesterday? The RAA came out and put the narrow spare on for me, but when I went to shop this morning it made a terrible noise and I thought it looked flat so won’t drive it again until it’s fixed.

Got neighbour to take me to chemist and post office after massage.

Helper says he is coming tomorrow and will deal with tyre. If he can’t fix puncture in original tyre or pump up spare I’ll call my mechanic back as he can get cheaper tyres. I really am having a bad run atm.

How do I clear the chakra you mentioned?

Going to put pain relieving gel on my back and neck.

Hope your day is going well. I haven’t had a manic episode like this one since 1998 when I was 28 and didn’t know I had bipolar.

[SmilingGecko]

Yes @GezzaP mania is the pits. The 3rd eye chakra can be found in this curated list. Its wise unblocking all the other chakras first to support the upper chakras but you may like to just do the third eye on its own, I dont know what results you will get though just doing one only. Youre certainly not on a good wicket at the moment with stuff going wrong in your life. I'm sorry all is not well for you right now. Just go gently today. Pace yourself and dont expect much of yourself. I cant begin to imagine how youre feeling. Sending you love from my heart GezzaP

Heres the extended playlist from root to crown: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LtsGjSzsNwY&list=PLsuCfYXzi5DLT6J6SXiS-D1G6C_BZdy0h

Heres the 3rd eye track only: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kS9PomqPA_o