10-03-2020 07:43 PM
10-03-2020 07:43 PM
@CheerBear I thought I might put this in here and take the risk of tagging you (I need an apprehensive smiley but this will have to do).
A few months ago, my psych said something that really hurt my feelings. We've discussed it a few times since then, and apparently he didn't mean to say it the way he did. What he meant to say is ok and I understand it. But I also believe that he really thinks the thing he accidentally said. When we've discussed it he has said otherwise, but I already believed the thing he accidentally said so of course I believe that over his backtracking.
While I understand why he would think the thing, I don't know how to stop feeling hurt by it being essentially confirmed. It was hard enough convincing myself beforehand that it was "possibly a distorted thought" whereas now - he literally said it.
It shouldn't matter if he thinks the thing, but it does matter to me for some reason and I don't know how to stop it from mattering.
(Not sure if robot-frustrated works here either but it's as good as any)
11-03-2020 05:58 AM
11-03-2020 05:58 AM
11-03-2020 09:26 PM
11-03-2020 09:26 PM
He managed to do another thing (or really not-do another thing) that I discovered after posting, which reinforces my belief in the thing. I don't know how I can justify continuing to see him when my biggest takeaway seems to be pain and upset.
I wish I could just cancel my next session and never think about him again. The same way he would never think about me again if I cancelled.
@CheerBear he seemed to agree when I mentioned that it shouldn't matter to me. So I dunno.
12-03-2020 08:21 PM
12-03-2020 08:21 PM
@TheVorticon On Wednesday afternoon that annoying customer went through the manager. I was helping another customer - female as well - let's call her customer b. This customer b called out loudly to her - asking her what she was laughing at. Then 'annoying' told her b she wasn't laughing at b. Then b said something offensive to her. When b left the shop she told the manager b had a 'mental problem'.
Strange isn't it - the other day she was annoying me then on Wednesday she gets
to experience what it's like when people are annoying....
I get a couple of days off from this workplace - I work somewhere else as well ..
the customers at the other place are much more 'normal' 🙂
16-03-2020 01:27 PM
16-03-2020 01:27 PM
08-04-2020 07:04 PM
08-04-2020 07:04 PM
Uggggggggghhhhh I totally screwed up a thing and I know the size of the screwup is hugely magnified in my head compared to reality but because it's to do with my psych it's like extra magnified. 😞
08-04-2020 07:36 PM
08-04-2020 07:36 PM
@TheVorticon 💙💙💙
14-04-2020 07:07 PM
14-04-2020 07:07 PM
I thought I was ok with my 'diagnosis situation'. Today I am really not ok with it.
14-04-2020 08:53 PM
14-04-2020 08:53 PM
14-04-2020 10:09 PM
14-04-2020 10:09 PM
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