14-04-2020 10:54 PM
14-04-2020 10:54 PM
15-04-2020 07:18 AM
15-04-2020 07:18 AM
Thanks for understanding and replying @CheerBear.
Yeah it's best that I don't go into the specifics here.
That's rubbish about the psychiatrist. I dunno why they even have that sort of function in that setting because how can they possibly know anything about what's going on to make any sort of diagnosis. Feeling pretty pissed off for you there.
I do sense that you get me about the beat-up-for-able stuff. I'm glad that you're pushing back against those ideas for you (cause I don't think there's beat-up-for-able stuff in you either).
I dunno if it would be good for me to know for sure or not. If I did know and it was, then there's a pretty strict course of action that I would have to take. But if it is and I don't know, then that leaves me having to decide if I take it preemptively or not, or take a partial course of action in line with the likelihood of how much I think it might be.
15-04-2020 07:39 AM
15-04-2020 07:39 AM
24-04-2020 10:20 AM
24-04-2020 10:20 AM
I'm still irritatingly curious about what "options" my psych might be considering.
Knowing won't really help anything but I still want to know, but then I don't want to know details that will lead to self-punishment (and it's not particularly difficult to tip myself into that mindset - I could probably swing almost anything there given the opportunity and motive).
Part of his reason for not telling me (aside from not really knowing yet) is that I'll research the hell out of it and come across unhelpful stuff... Which I understand is more harmful than not knowing and researching a much wider range of things but not identifying with any of them. But both are still a waste of time.
24-04-2020 10:36 AM
24-04-2020 10:36 AM
@TheVorticon When I was diagnosed I researched the hell out of it. I did find some unhelpful stuff, but I found helpful stuff as well. It’s tricky.
I had a pretty good idea of my diagnosis before it was ‘ official ‘. I had been given other ‘ labels’, more to help my psych at the time I think, as they were nowhere near who I am. I took meds for bipolar for years, until I realised myself, it wasn’t me, after research. Borderline personality was another. It never did fit, but sometimes a label is for others, not us.
I’m rambling, wanting to let you know I’m hearing you. Sending 💜💜💜
24-04-2020 10:53 AM
24-04-2020 10:53 AM
29-04-2020 06:05 AM
29-04-2020 06:05 AM
29-04-2020 09:47 AM
29-04-2020 09:47 AM
Hi @CheerBear.
I'm feeling OK about the diagnosis situation today, but am also just feeling a bit sad and miss talking to my psych (which hopefully I can admit without making myself feel bad about it). I have an appointment tomorrow which still feels like a long time away even though it isn't.
There always seems like so much that could be talked about, if I want to talk about them, but it's difficult to decide what topics to choose.
05-05-2020 06:32 AM
05-05-2020 06:32 AM
05-05-2020 09:26 AM
05-05-2020 09:26 AM
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