Battles we face

[Starsweeper16]

Hey everyone, hope everyone is doing ok tonight , I wanted to reach out and share my struggle , as a SA survivor cptsd suffer and depression sufferer everyday still comes with its struggles , I get up I function,  put on a brave face and some days i feel like everything is ok and I think yes I feel happy strong capable free , then that feelings of being unsafe and constantly scanning for danger creep in and anxiety takes overthefeeling of unworthiness and wanting to escape it all andconfusion follows. I don't think anyone can  understand these feelings unless they've been through it themselves, it's tiring , it's cruel and a continuous battle. I feel at points I'm healed and other days or moments I'm right back in the thick of it. As much as I maintain my meds , self care , appointments, it will be a lifetime battle. I know others will understand this.

[NightHedgehog]

A warm welcome and thanks for sharing your experiences with the community @Starsweeper16!🌟 

  

Sounds like you have put a lot of work into your wellbeing and feelings of safety in day to day life, but there are still these times when the anxious and vigilant feelings or negative thoughts rear their heads.  Its great to hear you describe yourself as happy, strong, capable and free (even if this only feels accurate some days) but I also hear the tiredness and the weight of the constantly carrying these other things in life.  

It takes courage to share your experiences with the community, hopefully sharing your experience in this space and hearing that of others will be able to offer not only insight but also encouragement. You are not alone in this.  

   

I'm sure that the community will have some insights to share with you soon! Feel free to Introduce yourself here if you haven’t already! 

  

Take care 🌱

[BipolarRich]

Something small from tonight's CHIME group that might help you ....

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I hope this helps 

[Lapis_Anteater]

Hi @Starsweeper16 

It sounds like you have been through a lot and are doing the best you can to help yourself. It’s really impressive and you deserve a huge congratulations. I hope things will get easier for you as time passes and you continue to heal. It may be a lifelong struggle, but you are still capable of living a beautiful life despite all the challenges you face.