i found myself broken

[Former-Member]

Hi @ohanais,

I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling so much at the moment. It is great that you have reconnected to the lovely people here on the forums - I am positive there are so many people here who are willing to listen.

It is so difficult and isolating to feel that you are a burden, and so scary to feel that you are not safe with yourself. As you know, we have emailed you and checked-in tonight. If feelings of safety become overwhelming, please reach out to crisis services for support.

We here at SANE care about your safety, and want you to reach out for support whenever you are feeling unsafe.

Kindest Regards,

Amour_Et_Psyché

[ohanais]

Thank you @TAB It is difficult ❣

[ohanais]

@Zoe7

Thank you thank you thank you Zoe7.

I am glad to hear you being on the forums tonight although I am sorry to hear about your recent absence. It is something so dreadful and horribke to think or feel - but exactly as what you said, it is what the forums are for, it is extremely hard to realise it though. As gaining attention or people supporting you can make you begin to feel like a burden or selfish in a way.

I truly believe everyone contains fear in one way or another.

Zoe7 I am sorry to write this short - I do need to quickly head off.. however - is it okay it I write to you and mention you tomorrow morning?

[Zoe7]

omg @ohanais you being here is enough - no need for replies - and definitely write to me whenever you like buddy  Look after yourself tonight sweetheart and please check in with me tomorrow - I will be thinking of you and hoping you are safe tonight 

[soul]

Hi @ohanais - I too am glad that you are back. I hope you can see that you were missed and that you matter to us. Please let us know when you are struggling. We mightn't be able to fix your problems but we are here to listen.

[ohanais]

@Former-Member

I do know that you can also relate in the feelings of leaving & coming back 💜💔

I do love reading - and I read a lot on the brain, and mental health as I find it very interesting (and worthwhile in understanding or gaining comprehension)

I am quickly heading off but will be back - I just really need to take a moment and think. Talk soon?

[Faith-and-Hope]

So good to see you back @ohanais ..... no judgements ... just good to see you back.   

Sorry to hear that you have been struggling so much ..... hopefully having so many friends here who have missed you will help to calm you a bit ..... walking along with you .....

Hugs .... 💜💐💕

[TAB]

Im not in your shoes @ohanais but I wish you well 😀

[TAB]

Well I mean not now, not today re 'shoes' but I have my moments @ohanais Talking helps. And good to see you back 😀

[Former-Member]

Sure, chat sometime soon. @ohanais 💟💗
That's good that you love reading.
I used to feel extremely depressed etc, 24/7 for many years.
No joy whatsoever, not for a second.
Now I do experience some joy.
Every day is a struggle, as soon as I wake up. Some days I have energy to fight, other days I don't.
It changes, but at least I know what happiness does feel like and I want more. 😊
Hoping the deep depression will lift off you soon.
I know how hard it is to fight when feeling like that.
I hope that it helps you to chat on here, but it's ok when you need a break, we all do at times.

I'm going to try and get an early night.

Love and hugs to you. 💜