A long rave

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Hi @CheerBear Yes electrickery - I remember that term from the Catweazel TV series (1970's?).

I'm rather flat @eth

I haven't seen anyone socially, or been outside much for several days - except shopping trips.

I've been having some nasty nightmares too.

Actually mostly flashbacks (daytime) of recent actual traumatic events - mostly of hospital (A&E), & of the police.

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Thanks @Zoe7 You too

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[Bunniekins]

@Adge Just signing in to see if you are ok? Read your previous message and am concerned about my friend finch.

[Zoe7]

Just saw your post @Adge and that is some tough stuff to be dealing with. Flashbacks are difficult to deal with and can completely take over our whole lives when they are happening. Very much feeling for you @Adge. 

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Hi & Thanks @Bunniekins & @Zoe7

Yes, I rarely have visual flashbacks, usually just intense emotional flashbacks - apparently common with CPTSD, from childhood & events long ago.

These were very real, relatively recent events (about 4 to 6 weeks ago) - & very unpleasant to remember.

It's me "processing stuff", often weeks after something happened - it seems to take that long (sometimes), for it to "sink in".

I'm okay thanks, I'm not liking what I'm remembering....

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[Bunniekins]

@Adge xxxx am here if you want to talk about it if that helps. If not am here just to talk 🙂

I have some good news am off to the movies tonight with son2 to see Clint Eastwood's movie The Mule :). Have you heard of it? I figure if Clint is directing it and acting in it it will be excellent.

[Zoe7]

Seeing as what you are experiencing now with the flashbacks happened quite recently it is no wonder you are feeling as you are @Adge That processing time is different for all of us so go easy on yourself while you are going through all this today. Hopefully for you this won't be an ongoing thing and it is your mind helping it to 'sink in'. Either way it is tough to be dealing with - do you have support to help you through this?

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Adge

Sorry to hear about your nightmares and flashbacks.  

Kangaroo MobJust a distraction pic.  Hoping you are getting better.

Hey @Mazarita Hearing you about the sweating and I live in a much cooler climb.

@Zoe7 @Bunniekins @CheerBear 

[Zoe7]

Hi @Appleblossom How are you travelling today?

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Hi @Bunniekins I hope you enjoy your movie - that one's too tense for me (suspense or thriller), even though I like Clint Eastwood.

Goto lie down, have a rest.

It's very hot here - I just cleaned & re-stocked my aviaries & cages, in the heat.

Would love to chat later (shortly), but you might be gone by then.

Thanks @Zoe7 These recent events were definitely traumatising - they also "tied into" or "re-triggered" past traumas.

My "relatives" intentionally undermined my own independence (in my own house) - claiming that they "had a plan", & that they knew "what was best for me".

They refused (when I asked them many times), to tell me what their plan or intentions were.

I am very independent, I need a lot of personal space.

I have lived independently interstate, & away from my relatives (family or origin) for more than 24 years - for very good reasons.

My family childhood, adolescent, & young adult environment - was the cause & source of several decades of traumatic experiences.

Yet denial Reigns - they don't acknowledge or own virtually any of that.

Journal writing is my main outlet at the moment

I don't have any other outlets for it - except to phone a support line, if necessary.

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