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Had a somewhat difficult start to DBT today - things brought up that I had to think about for a while. It was all centred around how I feel about people generally and the impact my childhood and trauma have had on my beliefs. I did talk more with my pdoc about it all this afternoon and will bring it up with my psych when I see her in a couple of weeks. I also talked about the security of being in my little bubble at home with my fur babies and that I really don't want to branch outside that bubble too much - especially right now. Work, DBT and appointments are enough for me to deal with - I know I am getting through the days a little better and don't feel quite so tired but am always glad to be home at the end of the day and all I can really manage is rest - throwing anything else into that mix would exhaust me - that I am very conscious of. Today I feel exhausted and could quite easily go to bed now and sleep until tomorrow.
My pdoc and I also talked about me waking up during the night and the dreams I am having - they are quite vivid but not traumatic as such - they do shake me up a bit though. We have decided to stick with the current meds and dosages and re-assess next appointment (which will be in the holidays) - so if we are going to change anything again I will have a little time to get used to the change. I am reluctant to increase one of my night meds again but if the waking through the night continues we may need to - that I know will make me even more tired in the morning and is not ideal coming into the colder months when mornings are hard anyway.
I really need to do a few things at home this afternoon but the tiredness factor is prominent. I will try after a little rest and only do the couple of things that cannot wait until the weekend. I may even feel a little better once those couple of things are done. It is definitely going to be an early night for me so I can be rested enough to get through the next couple of days at work.
I hope everyone else has had an okay day - some of you I know are doing it tough at the moment and my thoughts are with you all. Love and hugs to you all in however your day has gone 
You have achieved so much, I hope there is no pressure to do more than you are able.
This pic caught my eye. I think it is not just about stubbornness also relevant about energy and being empty or preoccupied and not always being able to be there even though we want to.
