Fragile

[Sophia1]

@Appleblossom ...

Apologies I had to rewrite this...I wrote my original response late last night...I so much wanted you to know that I wanted to give you some form of validation from my part.

There was no burden felt at all. You can write to me about your struggles and I will feel honoured that you feel comfortable enough in sharing your thoughts.

I am me..a deep thinker...therefore I need to think things through when responding to such vulnerability..So important..as not wanting to enter your personal space...come too close to your vulnerability.

The title is well thought out as these are fragile moments in time leaving fragile feelings...which will continue to be there for others in times to come....a trail to follow of their story...as a remembrance of their life...a family tie connecting you and your family...

Observing and thinking about this through older.. maturer eyes..through the eyes of you as a mother ..your own family..an extension in history ..

there are no answers for such atrocities..

your feelings are real.. valid..also to be valued

The very act of following through and thinking of them...not letting go gives value to their lives... now in this time and in the future.... 

You are continuing your family history.

in doing this you are honouring them..;

This is now at this time...it does not have to be the beginning or the end...it is now..

to be revisited...or not...does not need to be thought about...

They would be so very proud of the loving apple blossom..so gifted..talented..an humanitarian and Carer of animals..a loving mother..brother....sister...relative....friend...carer..

Give yourself time to just breathe and feel what you feel and know that you are safe..

No rush

please keep in touch. 
love Sophia 

Should this be intimidating or triggering I will do whatever you ask,, should you wish for this to be removed..

I respect your feelings, thoughts and wishes..

[outlander]

@Sophia1 @Appleblossom @Anastasia 

[Anastasia]

Thank you @outlander x

[Shaz51]

@Appleblossom 

Sending you lots of tender hugs my friend for today ❤❤❤ and sitting with you xoxo 

[Appleblossom]

Oooh Dear Friend @Shaz51 

Thank you.

My son's birthday.

He got a book, mug, socks and head rub gift certificate.  We enjoyed lunch,  blueberries and peppermint  tea. There is more to come.

I got triggered today by church morning tea.

1) Had to sit through a lot of Grandfinal talk, 

2) A lovely mum had a cat like mine and little one year old.  I realised how proscribed, silenced and prevented from relaxing or being after birth of my 2 biological children.  I was robbed of my basic Motherhood rights and they were robbed of their birth rights. 

The lovely mum was lovely and very like me in values and mothering style.  I would never detract from her, it was my first time at their zoom morning tea. Bringing my sense of triggering here.

[Shaz51]

Happy birthday to your Son @Appleblossom 

Glad you had a lovely  lunch ❤

Sorry you were triggered this morning at church morning tea 

I had to wipe my tears this morning at church as discussions came up about a few a things that are going on in my life and to top it off Mr shaz was affected by the talk and said we are not going anymore xoxo 

[Anastasia]

Happy birthday for your boy @Appleblossom 

Hugs to you and @Shaz51 🤗🤗

🎂🎊🎉

[Appleblossom]

Thanks @Shaz51  and @Anastasia 

Sorry about your triggering. 

I have not had a church for about 6 years, since I left CBD one.

We had a dinner he wanted and he has crashed, as he was up early.

I had a lovely walk with my new friend, and found an old bluestone road.

Also had a lovely phone call with an old friend and piano student, but very sad, as her husband, also an exstudent and friend is dying and its very tragic.

Cotton Wool time

Protective Cocoon

[Sophia1]

Hello @Appleblossom 

I am so sorry that I missed your son's birthday ..

Wishing him times ahead ...opening doors for chances to reinforce his strengths and achievements..

The special birthday shared time sounds wonderful ..

You are a wonderful mum ...I hope that you believe this of yourself if not already are on a path of starting to..

Church experiences for me have always drawn overbearing people into my space..I have had some awful experiences when I took my older son aged 2 to a nearby church hoping to find a sense of welcome and eventually belonging..

Sadly this was not the case...

Belief...faith are still in my mind..

💜

[Sophia1]

@Appleblossom 

I just read your latest post here and cotton wool times sound very sensible to me..

I will support and allow you your space at the same time...

letting you know that you are a friend and I am thinking of you..

💜