THE dark side

[Bubbles3]

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side 
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

[Bubbles3]

I don't really know
who I am anymore.
What happened to the world,
the world I used to adore,
the world I loved,
for filling me with hate.
What happened to the old me,
the me that hated being called your mate.
The me that hated smiling and laughing,
the me that hated being happy,
arrrr, just thinking about it makes me feel like barfing.
Who am I right now, I still don't know
Where is the me that depised being called nice,
will I ever find that me again,
that me with the heart covered with ice.
Why can't I find the me that wrote for himself
and hated everyone equally,
including himself.
Oh why can't I find that me,
I feel a weird emotion without him,
but I cant' seem to cry,
even though I know he'll be back...
because "Evil Never Truly Dies".

[Bubbles3]

when ever there is anger fury takes control
this just the devil trying to take your soul
there inside your mind tormenting you inside
living on your darkside where he can safely hide.

waiting for his chance till the time you snap
then he will steal your soul once your in his trap
take it to his hell to his fires below
lock you up in chains and never let you go.

you must use your will dont let the devil in
take control of anger dont let the devil win.

[Bubbles3]

She starred into the shattered mirror. Her reflection, empty, shallow. Eyes glistening with useless tears. Mind facing. "Freak" she whispered. "Us freaks" sigh. The ones with the damaged brains. There's a constant heavy weight on her shoulders. Staring into the mirror she mumbled "you consume me" it's a daunting feeling not feeling normal  everyone has a darkside but hers is pitch black, like the night sky. Her mental illness is invisible. If you have a broken leg or organ failure you'd be important. What's the difference? People with mental illnesses are alone. "How did I get like this?" She whispered. A tear fell. She stared. Her reflection, the monster. Damaged people are dangerous to themselves. Hysterically crying she sobbed "to the theif that stole my smile, please return it! I'm sick of faking" another tear fell. "Mentally I'm exhausted, emotionally I'm drained, physically I smile. Why? I'm trapped in my own personal prison" tired of hoping, her monstrous reflection stared directly into her empty soulless eyes. Damaged soul.hated reflection. Haunted empty body. All this pain was once happiness. She wants to wake up, this can't be reality. "I don't know who I am anymore". She grasped the mirror off the wall. Clenched her fists. "Let go". "Let go". " let go". 
Finally, she let the broken mirror slip out her Clenched fists. BANG A shudder ran up her spine. A tiny but visible smile appeared. "It's you! You won't control me anymore, reflection".

[Bubbles3]

The darkness surrounds me
It's getting so cold
I'm all alone
With no one to hold

My world is so empty
All what's left is pain
No sunshine to light my way
Just never ending rain

I drown in tears
My heart is crying
No one seems to notice
My soul is dying

[Bubbles3]

There's a cold dark corner
in the back of my room,
it speaks to me
and says I'm coming for you.

As I lie on my bed
in the fetal position,
my eyes are closed
hoping and wishing.

Maybe that one day
my dreams will come true,
that I don't have to be here
so down and blue.

The corner keeps talking
about how I'm going to die,
all I can do
is lie there and cry.

As the corner gets closer
and takes me in,
my soul starts to burn
as so does my skin.

My bones shall lie there
turning to dust,
my bed surrounding
nothing but rust.

[Bubbles3]

In times of trouble and insanity
I carry masks to disguise
the pain I carry
secure behind my eyes

I can never let out again
the misery I hide
to hell with my dignity
to hell with my pride

from this day forward
and for ever more
I will mount this mask
that will be my lore

No reaching out when I am weak
no solace will I seek

when you look for answers
when you say your prayers
all you will see is masks
and no pain that I bare

[Bubbles3]

mark is back agian

i dont know how to get rid of him. 

i dont what to do

kelly is trying to speek but mark wont let her.

i prefer kelly than mark

kelly was here this morning but then mark took over

i want him to go away

@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7@Appleblossom@Shaz51@Catcakes@outlander@Former-Member

[Zoe7]

You got this @Bubbles3 

turn away from Mark - do not acknowledge him, do not listen - he wants your attention and you are not going to give it to him

[Shaz51]

You got this @Bubbles3