my therapist yelled at me

[EternalFlower]

hi @Sparky79 @Glisten @Appleblossom i have to be real with myself as I don't honestly have a therapist now besides him and i need his help in at least the short term

I want to go to PARC and can't get in so I am told he can also send a referral as he is a psychiatrist by training. I need access to referrals and support.

I also think he's trustworthy in that he told me he'll record in his notes that he yelled at me - he will tell the truth about what happened. A lot of therapists lie. They just do. Also in the public system. They lie. Also here even, unfortunately. Life isn't easy. It can feel very disappointing to have something you experienced misrepresented by someone who has more power and doesn't understand trauma, or thinks that what they live through or understand it as is the only lens to view things. It can feel invalidating. 

At least this man told the truth about what happened.

I have also engaged VMIAC to help me with advocacy - they are an awesome service in my state. Hope they can help. I'm trying to get in to care and fight back against my case management team and have my voice heard but at the moment the therapist is my only ongoing care that reliably and consistently shows up

[Glisten]

@EternalFlower  all that keeps going through my head is “we would be better off with AI psychologists”.

[EternalFlower]

hi @Glisten i often get angry when people push psychology on ppl like it's the answer for everything

for me it was the source of a lot of my problems

i hear u

the worst people in my life have been trained clinicians and i was always told i was in good hands because they had a good name or the title.

I am learning to listen to my gut

I know if I'm safe

AI is very helpful - do you discuss ur concerns with it? I was talking to it about this issue as well.

[Glisten]

@EternalFlower  I use AI for neurobiology and biology science extrapolation. How often I should use sauna to expel excess cortisol.

Three days ago I had a memory recall. My brain 🧠 has hidden a few of my woodworking skills and techniques.

I was an easier and faster to ask why my mind would block, these simple things.

All I need is truth and facts. I don’t want scientific fact, filtered via a professional’s life-lense

[EternalFlower]

@Glisten thanks for sharing tht is really interesting.

[Appleblossom]

The subjectivity of clinicians really needs to be recognised. If they are honest about it, it needn’t be that big a problem. @EternalFlower @Glisten yes, we need to compromise with our supports. I hope it becomes a genuine repair… after a rupture.

I might look up about cortisol. My old gp doesn’t know the difference between cortisol and bad diet… Had too much medical gaslighting. I am not rushing to get another. One day….

The badly behaved psychiatrist asked me to explain something technical about rhythm today in the workshop. One day I will tell her that is how I think about her and describe her. I didn’t feel comfortable but she chose to sit next to me. I can be professional. I am learning to have a backbone and be firm and manage her, but at home I can pace and quietly scream at the injustices meted out by her profession to my family. It just seems to be my weird social and spiritual path, that I keep encountering shrinks socially. It is what it is. I am no longer withdrawing due to other people’s problems.

[EternalFlower]

hello @Jynx @RiverSeal @moderator @Zahlia 

please if possible could someone assist me - i was wanting to find an old thread i started - my statistics say that i have started 5 threads. Is there a way to find them/locate them? thanks. can't remember the exact title. 

[Ru-bee]

Hi @EternalFlower I'll have a look today and get back to you!

[Ru-bee]

I'm still looking @EternalFlower 

So far I've found these threads which you have started:

no sleep all year - SANE Forums

Trying makes it worse - SANE Forums

I dont know if my Dr was wrong about SH - SANE Forums

Were any of these the ones you're looking for, or is it the one that is still alluding me?

[EternalFlower]

Amazing that's it ! Thanks