@Re: Trying makes it worse

[EternalFlower]

I love that @Appleblossom all music has a place ♥️ love that u like blues as well as soul. All music has a value and moment.

I got through my weekend. Did the dishes and put some thin but also did some nice stuff for myself. 

I  think ur onto something how the mental health system has limits of what they can do.

I am still processing and traumatised by the last few weeks trying to get help for myself and getting rejected repeatedly

I probably have BPD on my notes even though i was x3 assessed to have a diff diagnosis, because i fit some of the criteria....so its probably stigma and just being poor that i cant get in anywhere for services now.

I did not know the reference u mentioned, apple, a singer?

[Appleblossom]

@EternalFlower 

Its good you did chores and good things for you.  Believing in yourself is key.  It is hard when we are poor.

I did mention the name of the artist of the picture I posted

Clarice Beckett ... there was a recent exhibition ... 

https://www.geelonggallery.org.au/claricebeckettatmosphere 

[Appleblossom]

Not sure what you think of this lady and her approaches ... Irene Lyons

@EternalFlower 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kUgkowZhmWs 

I find her ideas resonate for me.

[EternalFlower]

Thanks @Appleblossom , she looks cool...i got an interesting vibe from her

I am panicing up late thinking about hospital ane this week and my dr coming back

Really feeling the intense stuff atm

Your art - share was stunning! I did not know that artist but it felt very beautiful 

[Appleblossom]

@EternalFlower 

Glad you liked her.  It is very impressionistic but I like that she paints places I have been.  Gives definite historical perspective.

I just find it soothing.

Its a new week and the sun is shining, a load of wash is on, but my sleep is all over the place ... am a bit spacey but have counsellor in 10 mins online.

Take care

[outlander]

hows your day been? @EternalFlower @Appleblossom

[outlander]

hey @Meowmy

[EternalFlower]

Hi @outlander sorry i am behind on messages.

My dr came back today and i got a cleaner to help so my apartment is better 🛌🛋️🛁🚪

My car nearly failed today as out of oil but got a top up and have to take it to the mechanic asap. I am overwhelmed ane its another hassle.

I am dreading the weekend....feeling scared to be alone in my apartment. It has been a hard week.

Hope u are doing ok ...how has ur week been? @outlander @TAB @Appleblossom @tyme @chibam 

[TAB]

..perhaps alone could be good if outside world contact not ideal ? @EternalFlower  anyway, get car fixed if you can. No oil is serious.

[EternalFlower]

Thanks @TAB alone can be good too. I agree. A time to breathe.

I drove my car home unfortunately on no oil as i didnt know before but it wasnt too far and the car still started so he said it was ok and put some oil in, but i wont do it again, now thar i know how serious it is. I hope i can go to mechanic tonorrow. Wish i knew this stuff.

I hope to teach my kids the basics do they are not clueless like me....

I have roadside assist so the truck came and he gave me some oil so i can drive to the mechanic.